Some Days

Some days
I want to turn back the clock
and go back
to the moments
I wished I'd done differently

Said the words I should have said
Done the things I should have done
Took back the words that I shouldn't have
Undo the things I shouldn't have done

I wish I could
Turn back the events
Take back the tears
Undo the hurt
Let go of the feelings
that just did not matter
only too late
did I realize

I would
make more smiles
and settled for forgiving easily
relaxed more
and laughed more
be bolder
took hold of the opportunity
the chances
that in the blink of the eye
disappeared
no longer presented as choice
no longer able to be chosen

Ah
Indeed these are the things I wish I could do...

But here I am,
here in the present now
I can only forgive myself and accept
that I must make peace
with the past
and hope for the future
and know
that I have come
a long long way
from then
and trust
that with the knowledge I possess
I will be able to make
better choices
do things
that will enable me to look back
and smile
that at least
I did all that I could :)